Everything went on as usual until the day I met him. The first time we met, he left a good impression on me. When I was back, I said to myself why not give it a try. During the following days, we've been through happiness and hardship.

Remember the first time when I met him.
Remember the first time when he called me.
Remember the first time when he took me out.
Remember the first time we held each others' hand.
Remember the first time we kissed.
Remember the first time we had an argument we apologized and then we compromised.

He is smart, quick-witted, tender, and considerate. He also has a beautiful voice and sings like an angle. It is fortunate to meet him. He is a gift from God,a part of me,the one, I could deeply trust and rely on. It is the true love I've dreamt of. It is sweety to be with him for the rest of my life. i thought at that time, maybe, to marry someone i like is a good choice to some extent. at least, it could satisfy everyone around me.

it has been four months since our wedding.  just the story of many inumerable couples, routine life all the time. he is nice, considerate as before. however, i may now and then be troubled a sort of uneasiness. hard to explain. it was not untill i came across the article another day that i suddenly realized where lies the problem. it is the life that everyone else but me desires. after you get into a certain age, you are supposed to marry someone, to have a family of your own, to have a baby. a routine life has its social value, maybe. but to me, i don't know. a life of change seems to be what i desire more.

why not take a tour to Australia? the idea occured to me the other day. as a language learner, it has been my dream to go overseas for a while, even if a few days. nevertheless, he furiously objected the idea with a basket of reasons, officially sounded. in a word, no tour alone permitted, as he said.an argument broke out afterwards.

the incident again reminds me of what i am to him, a doll within his control. something like a personal belongings.

don't know how long i could stand.